I became a soldier. I didn’t imagine it would be peaceful.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
Are you here because you want to hurt people? Because this is what you would enjoy? Then yes, I have a problem with that. There is a difference between being willing to kill, and wanting to kill.
[ This time, Jamie knows that her motives would be permissible in the eyes of others, if only because Kayden has factored in (along with Sherlock, a vague concern for his sensibilities). She expects empathy in this venture, if only because the CDC is a force united by corruption.
It's everything she hates about humanity, things that she thought herself far above. At least she's still more complex (in her own eyes). ]
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
In a war, we fight the enemy, called such for good reason or so one hopes. Here, we fight the innocent, those too good or too weak to join us and save themselves. I think that's a very different thing. Of course, that conclusion implies that the ends justify the means, an often dangerous notion.
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
Willing versus wanting is an even more dangerous distinction to make, Monsieur. As a philosopher, I must ask: do motives justify the means and ends? After all, willing or wanting, it doesn't make anyone less dead.
I am no philosopher, Mademoiselle, but a soldier. Killing is a messy business, no matter what the means or motive.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
To be here is not something I wanted, yet to dissent would place all I know and love in danger. I cannot do that. Nor could I stand idly by while others like me were put in harm's way. I don't like the job we do, or anything about this.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
I try to make the best I can with what I've been given. I imagine you will, too.
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Hello, Mademoiselle.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
Do you remember me? I met you on the ship. I've heard that you're going to be joining us, so I thought I'd say hello. Again.
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Hi!
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
As if I could forget someone so charming.
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
I admit that I'm not often a fan of repetition, but I believe you're an exception.
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I would have made this greeting in person, but it seems you're still a planet away. Hopefully they'll fix that soon.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
You seem in good spirits, are you happy about the transfer?
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Indeed. I'd like to put a face to your name.
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
I've been paired with the kind and the gallant, including yourself, among others. I'll allow myself to find some optimism in that.
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I think you're too kind for your own good, Mademoiselle.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
You aren't worried about what you'll be asked to do?
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I'm afraid that I'm one of the few who knew exactly what they signed up for, and I realize what sort of person that makes me.
[ the sensible sort, namely. ]
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
Better the devil you know, Monsieur.
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What sort of person does that make you?
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
We all have our reasons for being here. You were wrongly accused. I cannot blame you for wanting to escape that life, Mademoiselle.
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The sort unfit for polite conversation.
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
But thank you. I think all sinners hope for understanding, if not forgiveness.
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What is there for me to forgive? Or anyone here. And if you were wrongly accused, then there is nothing to forgive at all, is there?
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I signed up knowing full well that I would be harming others. That doesn't bother you?
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I became a soldier. I didn’t imagine it would be peaceful.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
Are you here because you want to hurt people? Because this is what you would enjoy? Then yes, I have a problem with that. There is a difference between being willing to kill, and wanting to kill.
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It's everything she hates about humanity, things that she thought herself far above. At least she's still more complex (in her own eyes). ]
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
In a war, we fight the enemy, called such for good reason or so one hopes. Here, we fight the innocent, those too good or too weak to join us and save themselves. I think that's a very different thing. Of course, that conclusion implies that the ends justify the means, an often dangerous notion.
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
Willing versus wanting is an even more dangerous distinction to make, Monsieur. As a philosopher, I must ask: do motives justify the means and ends? After all, willing or wanting, it doesn't make anyone less dead.
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I am no philosopher, Mademoiselle, but a soldier. Killing is a messy business, no matter what the means or motive.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
To be here is not something I wanted, yet to dissent would place all I know and love in danger. I cannot do that. Nor could I stand idly by while others like me were put in harm's way. I don't like the job we do, or anything about this.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
I try to make the best I can with what I've been given. I imagine you will, too.
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I intend to.
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.or
We've found ourselves in a moral quandary, and I can only help that we'll carve another way out, eventually.
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I hope so too.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
Perhaps we'll make it happen, if enough of us want it to.
help = hope. oh phone tags!
With enough faith, patience, and shrewdness, I'd say that it's possible.
[ patience is the hardest part, really. ]
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That's what you want, then - to be away from here, to end all of this?
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to find the unique and surprising, the genuine. ]
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
Isn't that what everyone wants?
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Someone who doesn't want to answer, that's who. ]
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
No. Not particularly. Not everyone was tricked into coming here, some chose it. And wanted something, in return.
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Well, I want something, too.
FROM: moriarty.jamie@cdc.org
But I want it on my terms.
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And what are your terms, Mademoiselle?